Smart Spiral Stairs Handrail I Am A Recovering Addict In A Downward Spiral That Has Ended Up In The Worst Relapse Of My Life.?

I am a recovering addict in a downward spiral that has ended up in the worst relapse of my life.? - smart spiral stairs handrail

I am slowly killing my self with strong painkillers and sedatives. I am married and have a wonderful girl, why am I trying to ruin ... Help!
Please only serious answers, I need help .. I can not tell my husband to let me ... He does not understand how addiction can lay hands on you. Please, no smart *** comments, I try very hard ...